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Created out of flowers
and made for pleasure
I was given to Llew Llaw Gyffes as wife
We were happy
and spent many hours
till he left
one morning for the High King’s Court
That day another man came along
and it was he I wanted
His caresses were sweeter
his manhood was stronger
he promised not to leave me…
I could not live without him
Together we plotted the death of my husband
and carried it out one year hence
We thought we killed Llew
but he returned a year later and
killed my lover
I ran, to get away, hoping to escape
but the pounding hooves of my pursuers
caught up with me
The magician who turned me from flowers
into a woman
turned me from a woman into an owl
as punishment for my betrayal.
Welsh earth Goddess Blodeuwedd (pronounced blow-dye’wed) was wedded to sun God Llew Llaw Gyffes (Lugh) on the midsummer holiday of Lughnassah. Her name has become associated with betrayal because she tricked her husband by getting him to enact the complicated means of his death: bathing under a thatched roof over a cauldron by the side of a river, while standing with one leg touching a deer. Then she killed him with the help of her lover. The real story is about the archetypal forces. Blodeuwedd represents the voracious earth Goddess hungry for the blood of the sacred king to fertilize her soil.
Meaning of the Card
Blodeuwedd’s hooting call is heard in your life, alerting you to a betrayal. How is betrayal showing up in your life? Do you have trouble picking trustworthy friends, partners, coworkers, mates? Does all your care, consideration, and loyalty meet with treachery and betrayal? Have you misled someone so that you could get what you wanted? Blodeuwedd says that on your path to wholeness you must answer the question “How have I betrayed myself?” for all betrayal stems from self-betrayal.
Ritual Suggestion: Journey to Blodeuwedd
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Find a time and a place when and where you will not be disturbed. Sit or lie comfortably with your spine straight and close your eyes. Take a deep breath, breathing in safety as you speak or think the words: “I am in a safe space”. Take another deep breath and breathe in protection with the words: “I am protected”. Take a third deep breath, breathing in acceptance with the words: “I am accepted”. Notice if any feelings come up when you breathe in safety, protection and acceptance.
Now see, feel or sense a place in nature where you can go to relax. It can be a place you know and visit regularly or one that exists only in your imagination. Take a deep breath and as you exhale, go there. What are the smells? The colors or textures? Take another deep breath and, as you release it, settle in and let go.
When you feel ready, call Blodeuwedd. She appears before you and asks you what you need. You ask her for help in healing the root of your self-betrayal and she agrees to help you. Blodeuwedd produces a movie screen several feet in front of you. With a snap of her fingers, she begins to run a film. The film is your childhood from the moment of your birth in this life. She asks you to hold the questions “When in my childhood was I betrayed?” in your heart. The “film” reaches the originating moment of your betrayal and stops. If any feelings come up, allow yourself to feel them. Do what is appropriate for you. Were you abandoned? Was someone you trusted not there for you? Were your childhood needs not met? Whatever it is, allow yourself to see what happened. Allow the wounded child that is in you to express the emotion accompanying that betrayal.
Blodeuwedd asks you to go up to the screen, take the hand of that child, and escort her off the screen. You return with her to where you were sitting or lying. Ask that child what she needs and give it to her. Now tell her that you, the adult, love her and won’t betray her. Tell her you really see how she was wounded and that you, the adult, will be there for her. Keep repeating this until you feel she has really heard you. Now take her back to the “film” and let her reenter. Blodeuwedd rolls back the scene of your originating betrayal and replays it. This time when the betrayal is about to happen, you the adult appear on the scene and protect you the child.
Take in the healing that has occurred. Breathe it deeply into your cells, your bones, your consciousness. You feel energized and calm. You thank Blodeuwedd and she asks you for a gift. You give it to her with an open heart, and she disappears.
Now focus your attention on being in your relaxing place in nature. Take a deep breath and, as you release it, touch your left earlobe. Take another deep breath and, as you release it, squeeze your eyelids. Take one last deep breath and open your eyes.